I wanna shove people,
I wanna be shoved.
I wanna sweat,
I wanna stink,
I wanna hurt people,
I wanna be hurt.
I wanna feel pain, but on my own terms,
With music so loud I can’t think,
With body odor so bad I can’t breathe.
I wanna be close to people.
I wanna touch them,
Grab them,
Breathe them in.
I wanna be somewhere where malice has rules,
Unspoken rules we all follow:
You push me, I push you.
You elbow me, I elbow you.
You fall down, I pick you up.
I fall down, you pick me up.
We embrace.
I want intimacy,
I want violence,
I want this crazy pit where violence
is intimacy.
I wanna mosh till my heart gives out,
I wanna thrash till I can thrash no more.
I wanna push,
I wanna shove,
I wanna love,
Smacking bodies until one hits the floor.
