I always wanted a lionfish.
Its jagged spikes and crimson mane of poison fire, so tempting to touch. An intoxicating explosion of color against a sea of monotony. Unafraid and unrelenting, so intriguing. But I could never reach you. Could never get close enough to touch.
Flaunting your bands of stripes you taunt me from afar. The vastness of the sea separating you from me.
How crippling it was, to see you and know you could never be mine. Again and again I was pulled to you, my thrashing heart caught within your riptide. This intangible, unrequited tug of hopeless longing. Despair lapsed over me, drowning me in my own tears of futile delusions. So much time spent yearning for you.
My fragile dream rolled over and over and over until turned to pearl from the coarseness of your indifference.
Now glimmering and gilded, I am grinded down to my aching core. And yet I still hoped for you. Your beauty blinded me.
Adorned by blooming bands of burgundy and blush.
My mind imprisoned by your mystifying kaleidoscope of colors. Your blazing crown and scales of glowing fire warping my vision with the illusion of your intentions.
Then I saw the truth.
Deceitful beauty unveiled, divulging deception and disappointment. Your seduction a fabricated disguise. Suddenly your gorgeous crown of toxic flames that once scorched my burning heart a mere warning.
Do not touch.
Invasive and unwanted, you rummage the sea. An unwelcome pest. Your mirage of beauty rotted and left to expose your true cowardness. Fleeing your sea to feed on another more vulnerable, gnawing away at the innocent and pure.
Parasite.
Your venom slowly seeping into each and every pore.
A monster to hunt for sport.
Cleansed of you I am submerged in pure serenity. The peaceful stillness of life in your absence. My mind unblemished, my heart now cured from your sting by the balm of reality. Clarity washed over me, removing rose stained glasses and waking me from my eternal slumber of fruitless yearning.
Alas, the world is once again my oyster, and you just some fish in the sea.
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